If you’re anything like me you yearn for some alone time. Even if it’s just thirty minutes of time by yourself to collect your thoughts calmly or ponder your next move in life. That’s what I needed this Sunday and so desperately craved. I got just that…about 30 minutes to get out there and do what I love before it was too dark to capture anything worthwhile photography-wise. You see my alone time isn’t always spent sitting by myself in my home…sometimes that’s nice…but the alone time I craved this weekend was alone time with me, myself and I (along with my camera) outdoors.
I’ve been working so hard every night finishing portrait sessions, trying to get caught up, in order to begin the large task of creating a wedding album for my close friend.
I needed this time outdoors to look for inspiration. I had hoped to catch the sunset over the frozen canal but I missed it by under 5 minutes. As soon as I reached the bottom of the scary icy steps in photo one below the sunset was already gone behind the tree line. I was very sad and disappointed that traffic on the highway kept me from capturing what I imagined in my mind by just a few minutes. It just reminded me that life has so many fleeting moments…
Rather than pack it in I tried to made the best of the trip and look for other photo opportunities. Then I realized I forgot my gloves at home so my hands were starting to freeze and when I went to use my tripod I discovered I left the connector piece home. I didn’t let myself become discouraged. I ignored my frozen hands and took everything I wanted hand-held. No biggie.
Many of you know that 2008 wasn’t the brightest year of my life. It was probably the darkest year I’ve ever had. The one constant that brightened my life was my photography. Without it and the healing in provided me in the past year I don’t know where I would have been. I haven’t really discussed the darkness I experienced last year much on my blog. I try to keep the blog mostly business with little slice of life thrown in here or there but today I don’t think it’s a bad thing to share a little bit more then usual.
I spent a lot time the past year alone with my thoughts trying to come to a peaceful place so that I could start a new fresh beginning. I finally am picking myself up, dusting myself off, and making the fresh start. Winter has been tough…so many challenges at the end of 2008 (some that are still here and will take time before they are just a faded bad memory). I am optimistic that 2009 will be a good year for me but the challenges of 2008 have not disappeared. I just need to conquer them one at a time. I am still optimistic that this will be a good year for me (even with the obstacles I need to tackle).
I am definitely looking forward to Spring. I feel like it’s going to be my renewal of energy that I need so badly.
It’s always darkest before the dawn…
I started at the D&R Canal, made my way over to St. Joseph’s Seminary across the street, and then on my way back home I stopped at this hidden gem of an abandoned barn that you may remember for a year or so ago. I photographed some my favorite photography subjects…pathways, abandoned barns, and churches…I have a thing for them all (I wonder what that says about me?).
I was losing light quickly so this is what I achieved photography-wise in my short time out…alone with my thoughts.
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