Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone;
and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
Losing a parent is one of the hardest things one could imagine.
I still feel like it’s a bad dream and I’m waiting to wake up from it.
You lose a piece of your heart when someone close to you dies but after time passes the hurt seems to lessens a little each day.
I started to see a little clearer through the hazy fog I was walking through for the past couple weeks and even though I was devastated…and I felt as if life was so unfair…I realized that I still have reasons to smile.
Spending time with those that I love dearly helped to heal the pain and anguish each day. Seeing the outpouring of love from so many people who genuinely cared enough to send words of encouragement through emails, Facebook messages, calls, cards, texts, lifted my spirits each day.
It’s hard to decide what to do next. I’ve been away from my home in NJ for 2 weeks and 3 days. When I arrived home tonight, from NC, I felt as if I didn’t know where to begin…and hours later I still feel that way. I’m all out of sorts and flustered that I don’t know where to start and how to get back to normal.
I know it will take time, but if you know me, I’m not that patient about letting things sit for too long no matter what is going on in my life. I have a lot of work to do and more work is on it’s way…so rest assured that I will be back to “somewhat” normal soon. I will be working away into the late hours on my photography jobs and trying to think about the positive things in life rather than the bad luck that I feel I’ve been experiencing for a while. My work is one of the things that seems to keep me going through anything. I’m so thankful for the gift of photography given to me by my Dad (aka: Poppy-Seed).
I have a lot further to go before some of the turmoil in my life subsides but with all of your love and support I know I will make it through.
We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face…
we must do that which we think we cannot. –Eleanor Roosevelt
(thx Amy for the quote)